There are many examples in Scripture of men and women being driven to mountaintops or to their knees in prayer because they are paralysed by fear, discouragement or loneliness. I will highlight two examples of this.

We see an example of praying so as not to lose heart in the prophet Elijah when he is being threatened because of his prophetic message. Elijah had been a true and a courageous prophet, but at one point in his ministry he became dangerously disconsolate. His own people had ceased listening to his message, he had witnessed some of his fellow prophets being martyred and his message had deeply upset Jezebel, the most powerful woman in the kingdom, who had sent men to kill him. To flee Jezebel, Elijah climbed up Mount Horeb. As he retreated into a cave, he was confronted by God’s voice, asking what he was doing there. Elijah confessed his discouragement, his fear of losing his life and his loss of heart. Having confessed his fears, he retreated into the darkness of the cave to sit paralysed in fear and depression. But God, through the sound of a gentle breeze, lured him out to the mouth of the cave where Elijah again confessed his depression and fear; but this time in the form of a prayer. And, through that praye
r, he regained his strength of heart and came down the mountain ready to face his ministry and all its dangers with renewed energy and courage.

When all of his own strength had dried up, Elijah approached God with his weaknesses and that movement renewed his heart.

We see the same thing in Jesus when, facing His passion and death, He prays in the Garden of Gethsemane. It’s the low-point of His life and ministry: The people have stopped listening to Him, the religious authorities are conspiring with civil authorities to have Him killed, those few, His inner circle of disciples, who are still listening to His message, are not understanding it, and He feels utterly alone, “a stone’s throw away from everyone.” So as not to lose heart, He drops to His knees in prayer, a prayer so intense that He “sweats blood,” but that prayer eventually ends in consolation, with “an angel from heaven coming down to strengthen Him.” He brings His beaten-down, misunderstood, fearful and painfully isolated heart to prayer, and He is strengthened, given all the sustenance He needs to regain His courage.

And, in that, Jesus is contrasted with His apostles. At that very moment, they too are discouraged, lonely and fearful. But they are asleep while He prays, and their sleep, as the Gospels hint, is something more than physical. They are, we are told, “asleep out of sheer sorrow.” In essence, they are too depressed to be awake to the full strength of their own lives. This loss of heart has them paralysed in fear and when they finally do act they act in ways contrary to what Jesus had taught them. They attempt violence and then flee. They couldn’t face impending suffering as Jesus did because they didn’t pray as He did. They lost heart.

No matter who we are or how rich and blessed our lives may be, it is impossible to go through life without, at times, feeling bitterly misunderstood, becoming deeply disconsolate, succumbing to a paralysing tiredness and simply losing heart. We are human and, like Jesus, we will have days when we feel “a stone’s throw away from everyone.” And what’s paralysed inside of us is what’s highest in us: our capacity to forgive, our capacity to radiate huge, generous hearts, our capacity for empathy and understanding, our capacity for joy and our capacity for courage. Frightened and discouraged, like Elijah, we retreat into the inner darkness of a cave.

But in moments like this, we might understand ourselves this way: Like Elijah, we are in the darkness of a cave, paralysed by loss of heart; but God is at the mouth of the cave, a gentle breeze, luring us back out where everyone we love will be back within our reach.