She and two other victims kicked off a day of discussion at St. Michael’s College about the Church’s sad history of sexual abuse and coverups by telling their personal stories.
“I don’t want to keep telling my story, but…” she said.
Her message to an audience of theologians began with a message of peace from the victim community.
“We are not your enemies,” she said. “We all have a great devotion. We just can’t practice it in a Church that isn’t willing to stand with us.”
Huggins spoke at the February abuse summit in the Vatican before the Pope, cardinals and presidents of the world’s bishops’ conferences. She recounted a Catholic childhood stolen by Oblate Fr. Jack McCann, and the price she paid as an adult for trying to tell her Church what its priest had done.
The first time she went public, she lost her job as a 27-year-old Catholic teacher in Vancouver. She was accused of attacking the Church and called angry. She was pressured to settle her case and signed a non-disclosure agreement.
McCann eventually served 10 months in prison in 1992. But the charming, guitar-playing, worldly-wise McCann kept turning up in Catholic parishes and schools. It ended in 2011 when the media revealed that McCann, then serving at a parish in Ottawa’s east end, was a convicted pedophile and that the archdiocese had withheld the information even from McCann’s pastor.
As a little girl, Huggins loved Church. She learned to read by following the Mass in her mother’s St. Joseph Missal. She loved dressing up in shiny shoes and dresses. She loved the music — a love that survived her experience with McCann and led to a Bachelor of Music degree.
Though it has not always been easy, she’s never left the Church. She’s a member of the Archdiocese of Vancouver’s case review committee — a group of victims, canon lawyers and others formed last year by Archbishop Michael Miller after the Pennsylvania Grand Jury report came out. Miller asked them to examine Vancouver’s history of clerical sex abuse and produce a report later this year.
Huggins is also a member of SNAP, the Survivor’s Network of those Abused by Priests.
“We’re not going to have a perfect, purified Church,” Huggins told The Catholic Register. “But maybe we can have a Church that tries to be real, tries to shed the wall it has created to protect itself.”
When McCann arrived at Huggins’ Vancouver parish in 1974, his history of abuse was already known to bishops and Oblate superiors, according to Huggins. But the Church kept his “proclivities” sealed in secret files.
“He had already preyed. He already had victims before he came to our Church,” she said. “My 12-year-old self had no chance.”
She doesn’t blame parishioners.
“Predators groom communities,” she said. “Is my mother culpable for allowing me to spend time with Jack McCann? No.”
But lay Catholics today have a duty “to understand the problem,” she said. Understanding has to lead to action.
“It has to change,” Huggins said. “It absolutely has to change. We can’t continue to accept … that it’s just sin and goodness and we’re trying to find the balance between.”
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